I think about surrender a lot, because I am over forty and have learned how to control quite a bit of my life. Something happens when a person reaches that age group. As a twenty-something I would often remark on how bitchy forty year old women were. They just seemed…
Category: Acceptance
Shall we expect questions to lead to answers?
For the past three years, I have been sitting with the idea that it is the questions that are important, not the answers. Today I realized I have been waiting for an answer about joy and sorrow.
Being Human, First and Foremost
A very wise man told me once to give myself more grace because we are all imperfect. Through his example, he taught me to keep placing myself back on my intended path even after I mess up. I don’t really want to be perfect – what I really want is to be human.
Echoes of Mom’s suffering
My mom died at the end of 2006, just after her 60th birthday. She died of a rare kind of small intestine cancer, but actually she died of kidney failure as a result of starvation after her innards refused to pass food for a while. She died in the manner…
On expectations and blessings
This morning while sitting in silence with the Quakers, I began to explore the extent and impact of expectations in my life. What are the kinds of events/things/people/relationships we expect in our life? How do they steer our daily existence and our opportunities? Do they give us hope or do…
January progress report on my life
I feel as though I am waking from a long and troubled winter’s sleep. Christmas was a hard time for me though I do feel I injected some hope into the season which will help me have a better holiday next year. I was not suicidal and I don’t need…